The Whites of the Black

body & mind

2006-11-30T20:12:26Z

I now find that I myself
Am living in between two worlds
One that I live and breathe in
And the other that I do not
The merger of these two battle
For the space that is my own
But no longer do I see an outcome
Children often seek or find these conflicts
But not all sink to this of all conclusions
A paradox awakens
Whence comes reality and non-existence
One you exist in as a person as a whole
And one where nothing can exist
Not a person or a name or a word
If the two rifts must meet
And breakthrough each others boundaries
Eventually there must be a countdown
One where and when life exists
And the other where everything is nothingness
Not erased just not ever there
Sometimes I think I can see everything
And others I just look right through them
As if they weren’t even there at all
My words here are purely thought
Where thought alone prevails between these two
Different and indifferent I know
Soon enough something will happen to force a decision
To lean one way or the other
I will be taken from this state of awareness
But still the problem remains
Who am I
No, what is my purpose
Millions or Billions of years
And this is what life has become
A shadow of its past
Fighting to be tangible
To exist and be real
And sadly sometimes whereas the creatures of old
Only led themselves on primal urges of thought
And still existed
Today there are those swept away
Clear out of conscious
Shadows and Dust
No actual dust remains
Shadows
But the shadow no longer sustains
…
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Something simple

2006-05-27T16:50:23Z

The human belief
That everything that goes up
Must come back down
Or is it
Everything that goes down
Must come back up

King of Mind Games

2006-05-27T16:45:25Z

The truth dies
Filled with lies
And sullen cries
No one pries
Into the eyes
Of the King of Mind Games
We all share
His empty care
It's not fair
We cannot bear
Not the King of Mind Games
What his intentions may be
We'll never see
But we'll always agree
For he is the King of Mind Games
You never know
When he's ready to go
Because he is the King of Mind Games
Your train of thought
Will disappear
Refilled with his control
That's how it is
That's how it works
Under liege to the King of Mind Games
In his world
Full of mind games

Time freeze

2006-05-24T16:00:42Z

Although the length of time was not long
A glimpse of you has done me wrong
My wishes are only to have you near
But as soon as you had come you began to disappear
How can your beauty with time be so cruel
For your enchanting power over me rules
Will you come back and set me free
Or will I be stuck in this time freeze
You in my eyes I would call perfection
For you alone show and hold the beauty of creation
I felt for someone once before
But there was always something that made it incomplete
In your eyes I saw nothing wrong nor flawed
I see only a kind gentle being
In which it is easy to fall in love with
I wish you did not have to go
For I would have restlessly tried to make you happy
Perhaps there will be another time
Remember I will never forget
And that I'll always miss you
While waiting here in my time freeze

Short one

2006-05-24T15:52:56Z

The greatest bonds become a birth
The greatest mistakes are in your favor
The cruelest dreams are reality
The people you love will let you down
Some things will always happen unexpected
Taking a leap of faith will bring you riches
While gambling will end in loss

Everyday stuff

2006-05-24T02:00:16Z

Trapped inside these doors
Locked in from the outside
Frustrated like a little child
Wanting to cry and scream
Wanting to run off and go berserk
Suddenly coming to my senses
Through the window
Glass breaks all around
Making way to the end of the street
The road is blocked
Turn around and run the other way
Blocked again
Running down side streets and alleys
And every time
Running into the same result
The trapped feelings take over
Aggression rises
As the fact remains
Where's the answer
What to do
Berserk comes again
Jumping onto a ladder
The climb to the top begins
The world below gets smaller
The sky is swallowing everything up
Made it to the top
Gazing at the house
Now so small
The roads that have all been blocked
In a moments glance
The feeling of escape
The rush of freedom
Filling in the emptiness
Leaping from building to building
With the force of adrenaline pushing
Out of town
Out of the trapped life
In a new home
Relaxing from life
Then it happens again
Starting all over
Panic settling in
When reality crashes through
Nothing new
Nothing old
No need to run
It's only life
Life is nothing you escape from
Life isn't causing a problem
That you need to run from
Rising up
You face the door
And unlock it
Walking down the street
There's the road block
Walk around it
Place down your baggage
No fear
No entrapment
This is your life
And you're free
Letting go of baggage
Avoiding problems
And solving those you need to solve
That's freedom
That's living
That's life

Freely roaming the other side

2006-05-11T03:18:14Z

Switch back to the other side
Where dark seems like light
Where the truth in you lies
Where our shadows see
When time stands still
The place where fears run rampant
In the middle of the lions den
But the only the place they can't touch you
Looking straight into the eyes of the tiger
Knowing the tiger is immobilized here
Here where you can see every which way
Where you walk upside down
Just to finally see things
Right side up
There are piles of devastation
And fields of joy
Down the long road of moods
With the flash of a strobe light
The entire world alters
Here on the other side
A bird lies in a nest
Up a great tree
Then the branches
Wriggle into snakes
And drop from the bark
The bird squawks away
When he finds his nest
Is made of worms
The trunk begins carving
The shape of a man
The worms fall from the tree
Then touch down on the man form's head
Creating a full head of head
The snakes come together around
The mans legs and form clothing around him
A man springs to life
From his long dormant state
In the only place he could
Because he was here
On the other side
The place where the sky flows
With many instant pictures
That take place of the clouds
Instances that always play
Here on the other side
The best and the only
Fix it up shop resides here
The other side is very small
In the actuality of reality
But can be as large as we want
A place where we make the rules
Or live under them
Where we can rule over all
Or rule ourselves
Use the power
Or let the power take control
Anything is possible
Anything can be done here
While you're on the other side
The side of sides
Upside, downside
Inside, outside
And all the sides around
All here on the other side

Original dreams

2006-05-07T14:43:29Z

For a short little while
I had a delicate dream
I wanted to wander
To roam from place to place
It would be a difficult journey
But one I would complete
A time after that
I dreamed an even bigger dream
To float in the air
To see the tiny woven streets
And the lit up circuitry at night
To jump the clouds
And to make it closer to the stars
I fulfilled that dream
And became a cloud-hopper
Yet again another time
I dreamed larger than before
Something was laying in my way
And I wanted to pass
I stood my ground
And gave a lengthy stare
Mechanics of thought churning
Then a sudden rush
And a burst forward
Suddenly an explosive ecstasy
As the barrier flew apart
And I made it through
With feelings of outstanding triumph
I dream many dreams
And they grow larger all of the time
But a dreamer doesn't dream
And live with just a dream
A dreamer gazes well past the dream
And sees a bigger picture
And then dreams another dream
To look and see further than before
Being a dreamer is an accomplishment
That allows more to be accomplished
The dreamer makes our reality
Reality wouldn't be
If it was never dreamed by a dreamer first
And nothing ever came into reality
Before a dreamer dreamed it

Ironically Spoken

2006-05-05T14:02:05Z

Another wonderful irony
When many are about
Is that of then need of growth
Yet loving and wanting that of youth
When we are small
We only want growth
And more freedom
And more responsibility
Yet when we're holding a baby
We want our youth back
And we want our baby to stay small
Forever and ever and ever
Because we see that as pure and good
But then again we wanted to grow
To be better
So which is it
Or should it just remain another irony
Should our pets grow
Or should a dog stay a pup
Or the cat a kitten
I don't know which is better
But once again maybe I shouldn't know
Or else what use would it be
To have an irony

Chronological

2006-05-03T16:48:38Z

Follow the leader
Chronologically speaking
Because that's what we've always done
Follow the footsteps
Already laid
No need to make your own
When you already have some to walk with
Why be original
When the answers are already given
Who needs inspiration or creativity
When we could so simply
Choose simplicity
Follow follow
Round and round
Complete the loop again
Why stray off of the loop
When you may not be able to finish
This loop has been traveled
So stick with certainties
Don't let curiosity intervene
How could anybody be so blind
Or so crazy
To try something new
That may even have consequences
That's a word no one needs hearing
And why be opinionated
When we could follow someone else
No need to hassle with choices
Or right and wrong decisions
We don't have to
There's no point
There's no line
There's only the never-ending circle
Let's follow
Follow the leader
In a chronological order
In a world where no change is needed
No change is needed(?)

Arch

2006-05-02T12:01:18Z

As the room slowly
Disappears in their song
I'm left alone in
Only my own presence
Wondering why I don't participate
Why do I not follow
Why do I trouble myself
And let my troubles get to me
I do not truly understand myself
And all the while
I understand all those that I meet
Whether they have losses
I understand their nature
And their livelihood
But my troubles
Flow over me
And cloud the person I am
They tear me apart
And leave me a puzzled wreck
Hiding and scattering
As my own identity
Is spread all over and throughout
It is only one problem
And one I've avoided when I can
I don't think I can beat it
But I can't get away from it
I can't face it
I can't befriend it
And I'm running out of solutions
And time is with me no longer
I don't want this
Struggle with myself
And now a stunning blow
Has been brought forth
And I am pushed back
Losing my own territory
And having my own
Boundaries being shortened
The more I try and find myself
And save what is left
The farther away
My life meaning goes
Yet now
I don't know if it's my problem
Or if I'm starting to push away myself

Arch

2006-04-26T11:19:47Z

Someones blown the candles out
And light began to flee
I don't know where to go
And now I cannot see
I'm the one with the bag of bricks
Hunched over his back
I'm wandering lost
In an endless sea
You've never done
What you know you should have done
And the things you tried to do
Were always left undone
Where do you turn from here

(I could get out
If I really wanted to
But I'm much to proud
For myself)

More archives

2006-04-25T11:15:45Z

Sweet bitter irony
When warmth becomes so cold
Warm sand on your feet
On a sunny beach
Before your very eyes
A glacier
Cold, hard and slippery
The smooth plains
And the gentle streams
That run throughout
Grass is destroyed by weeds
The fish lie still along the waters edge
The great wonders of life
In great abundance come
A sweet bitter irony

victims

2006-04-25T11:12:05Z

Everybody is a victim
That doesn't change the fact
That every victim is the catalyst
To a new disease

Curiosity

2006-04-20T17:54:58Z

I wonder what the tide will bring
I wonder where it goes
I wonder... Oh how I wonder
I wonder where yesterday went
I wonder when tomorrow will arrive
I wonder... Oh how I wonder
Why I wonder I do not know
All I know is that I try
To wonder, wonder... wonder
Why trees grow, why birds fly
Why people walk, why reach for the sky
I am always so curious
And I can never stop thinking
I wonder... I wonder
I wonder
Oh why do I wonder so
I wonder... I wonder
I wonder

An image of unity

2006-04-19T08:39:55Z

Sticks and stones
Are swords and dragons
Trees and ruins
Are towers and castles
These are the things that are in my head
I come here to relax
When the real world gets rough
I come to challenge beasts
On my own terms
When I'm angry or just daring
I can float or fly
And I always know where I am
I'll invite friends when they want
And we'd adventure together
But where does that of the real world start
And the imaginary end
On a playground in the real world
When the monkey bars become ships
And the swings airplanes
Which world are we really in
All in all nothing is impossible
So I state my theory
We are in both
Not possible you might say 'scientifically' speaking
But science can only transcend so far
Until it must stop as a car does at a stop sign
For science was created by man
And that which we created is flawed
Thus leaving the imagination
Which has been a human asset
Since the dawn of man
It reigns superior
I for one would rather battle gargoyles
And fly with magical creatures and friends alike
Than sit in a lab or anchor down at a desk
The imagination is what keeps people sane
If i were mad at something
I would simply go to the gods and fight
Side by side with Hercules
Instead of rumbling with another person
My mind is my home
It is where I feel safe and warm
Without it I am nothing
Just a dull everyday human being
With the same routine schedules to keep
Instead I say
Come on friends, come on
We'll go to the endless world of forever
For this is not just my world
It is everyones to share together
Just as knowledge is useless
Without someone to share it with
The same goes for the imagination
Where I go one
I go all

In the struggle

2006-04-14T22:53:54Z

Prejudice me
Prejudice you
How is it so that you can hate me
I've done nothing to you
I've caused you no harm
Nor given any ailments
Yet you and so many others
Hate and distrust me so
With a passion
I walk the same as you
Yet you hate the way I walk
I speak just as you do
Yet you despise me speaking
If I were to give you a hand
You would send me away
I offer you friendship and it blows up in my face
How can a person
Slightly different from you
Be so plagued with torment
So as not to near them
If we say help one another
Then we should help one another
Yet we don't
It takes only one
To make a spark that could grow
To a great flaming fire
If I care enough
I in time may be able to help you fill the gap
In a cruel world where few care
The ones who do
Could accomplish very much
Though you care not for me
I will care for you
And in time we may live, together
Side by side
In everlasting peace

What was... What is

2006-04-11T14:56:23Z

You are bigger
So you must be stronger
You are older
So you must be wiser
Above all in regards to me
You must be superior
All in all you act the better
Like a ruler who reigns over all
You are the feet
That walk upon the ground
In which I am the dirt
Once I was an equal
I was standing right beside you
But that is over now
You've become the king
And I the peasant
A drastic change has come to be
And you think nothing of the past
And of how everything used to be
How you were once just like me
You only look down on others anymore
But this is your trap
And one hard to escape
So I will try to help
Putting behind me the treatment
You have given me
Deep down inside
You can still find it within you
Those wonderful joys of freedom
What is a king
Who cannot even leave his own kingdom
Although to you
I am nothing but an inconvenience
But I am free
As free as I could ever be
With no hassles and nothing to hold me down
So when you look at me next
Stop and think for awhile
Think of when you were just like me
And of how you were...
Free

A Remembrance

2006-04-08T11:52:01Z

When I'm gone
Don't sorrow
If I have to leave
I don't want to leave you that way
We've been joyous
And we've been sad
At times are lives were easy
At times our lives were hard
I would always say
Don't let anything get you down
I don't want you to be unhappy
So if you've done it for me before
You can do it once again
Stay happy just for me
You were always the greatest
And so I have loved to be with you
When I would fall down
You would pick me up
When I couldn't see
You saw for me
You substituted yourself
For what I couldn't do myself
I would try to repay you
To make you just as happy as you've made me
So if and when I leave
Let me leave the way I should
With you having a bright smile on your face
Your chin straight up
And your head held high
Miss me if you will
Remember me if you must
But always be happy
And just say
Until we meet again
Bon Voyage

My World Beyond

2006-04-07T17:15:57Z

In a room full of people
All sitting around
But are they really there
Surrounded by these people
I think I know them all
But do I really know them
Do I know their names
Do I know their thoughts
Do I know these people
I'm really alone in that room
I converse with them
I see them all
But they aren't really there
Just as they may be alone in this room also
I am here in my own world
Writing and thinking by myself
There is a distant voice talking
But I cannot fully hear it
There is a distant movement
But I cannot really see it
Soon I will go back
For my thoughts are almost done
Until yet another time
When I will come again
To this world
My world
And mine only and alone
Farewell and adieu for now

true wealth

2006-04-04T18:03:34Z

Money is only money
And power is only power
So what do they matter
For both will only tatter
They will wither away
And soil the world
Leaving behind nothing
But the things you've given up
To take on such a greed
Why let greed take over
The important aspects of life
When all has run out
We will not care for those
Who ran off of money or power
Not those who were greedy
But those of which were always needy
And never had a dime
Greed will leave you alone
In a sad empty lust
But those with nothing
Except friendship and love
Are richer than any silver, and gold, or any...

the other side

2006-04-03T14:28:36Z

Flip flop
Flip flop
Why can't we just stop
Why do we make it two
And create a big confusion
One be Dr. Jekyll
One be Mr. Hyde
Flip flop
Flip flop
Can't we learn to stop
We start out all charming
And then totally change
We end up another
Oh why do we bother
We are all strange and unusual people
We all have something to hide
We all have a Mr. Hyde
We all seem to always hide
Flip flop
Flip flop
I don't think we'll ever stop

Weaving of Time

2006-04-01T16:19:11Z

Life is but a quilt
Time but a thread
We replace the thread of the past
By weaving the thread of our future
Some threads are strong
And others weak that will likely break
We test with multiple colors
We design a great many shapes
Sometimes the woven isn't pleasing
Sometimes it is a work of art
No matter what though
We keep weaving
To complete the quilt we set out to make
When the threads become old and fragile
We replace them
And the quilt is torn
We simply backtrack to weave it again
Our quilt will become yet
An even bigger quilt
We weave our quilt in with others
And together we create a
Quilt of Time

The Whites of the Black

body & mind

Something simple

Archives

King of Mind Games

Time freeze

Short one

Everyday stuff

Freely roaming the other side

Original dreams

Archives

Ironically Spoken

Chronological

Arch

Arch

More archives

victims

Curiosity

An image of unity

In the struggle

What was... What is

A Remembrance

My World Beyond

true wealth

the other side

Weaving of Time